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HELLO!

I am back from a 2 day 1 night BONDED tertiary chalet ! Though it was quite akin to camp .

Haha!

Actually this is quite a breakthrough for me.

Because ever since I was secondary 2, I've stopped going for overnight camps .

Nobody really know why . Isn't because of my backbone problem, it's just I don't feel like going for overnight camps.

As I am a person who really, really HATE camps. Let me tell you why.

1) I just don't like to be dirty and packing lots of stuff, or bathing very quick. (normally i will take 1/2 hour to bathe finish.)

2) Camps will bound to have wet/need to get dirty games . (which most people who know me well will know that I'm a cleanliness freak . Highly value cleanliness in all areas of my life. Except for the part my study table in my house is untidy.. :X

However, I really value cleanliness in my life.

I don't put my handphone/anything, NOT EVEN TISSUE packet on the table ,and I don't put my elbows on tables while eating outside (as I don't want my elbows to get dirty), actually still have more. Just observe me more and you will know. hahahaha.

Overall I am a cleanliness freak.

That's why, I will try my VERY BEST to avoid camps at all costs because I don't want to get dirty.

2) I am someone who highly value my outer appearance and how I present to people when outside. Especially to people who I don't even know in camps.

I am SUPER VAIN. That's why, all the more I won't let people to see me IN SPECS in camps. EVEN AT HOME I don't wear specs unless necessary.

Much lest going to camps when my skin complexion is flawed now. (As to me, first impression is very important. So I won't want people whom I first met to remember my face as flawed skin complexion.)

I will make sure the clothes that I wear is matching or fashionable whenever I go out, making sure my hair is in a good condition.

3) I don't like to sleep on hard floor! I like to sleep on my soft and comfy bed.

And at camps, it's super hard to be asleep as people will be chatting while lights were out.. It's very hard to sleep before 1am at camps as there may be programs between 11pm - 1am. (As I've mentioned above, I'm someone who greatly value my appearance... I will make sure I sleep first before I study/do my projects even when the deadline is tomorrow.

As humans' skin will be renewing itself faster from 11pm to 4am. So of course I won't want my face to look so shag in the next morning!

But... I think all of these implications were ignored when it comes to knowing God more.

I am so hungry for God, and I just want to know my Father more. So I just packed my stuff, and go ahead for the bonded chalet. It is one decision that I've never regret. :)

Day 1

Wowwwwwwwww! The house was BIG~~ It looks like a terace to me. Slept in the first bunk, as their aircon was not that cool than the other one. (I am very scared of being cold in the night.)

Was so sad when I was in red team, as my closer cell group members were not in this team but in another team.

But .. I think that was just God's plan to let me know more brothers and sisters outside from my cg. :)

After that played some games and went for hours of Bible study.

Gosh.. the bible study was terrific. Got to know and understand more about God, and improving our walk with God.

And we prayed for each other, and told our partner what God had spoken to us.

Through them, He spoke to me , saying continue to walk with Him, and He shall show me the wonders of His works and more of Him. Which was what I've been craving and hunger after..

Thank you God.

Day 2

Woke up early in the morning to go the changi beach and have quiet time with God. And God showed me Psalms 118:1-9 (NIV)

1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.

2 Let Israel say:
“His love endures forever.”

3 Let the house of Aaron say:
“His love endures forever.”

4 Let those who fear the LORD say:
“His love endures forever.”

5 When hard pressed, I cried to the LORD;
he brought me into a spacious place.

6 The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?

7 The LORD is with me; he is my helper.
I look in triumph on my enemies.

8 It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in humans.

After that we shared the things that God had showed us to our group. (Y)

Went back to chalet and each of us preached the sermon that we've wrote after taking a break.

All sermons were good, everyone has that capacity to preach man. Amazing. :D

Went to praise and worship for two hours.

The presence of God was so tangible at that time. Everyone in the room got prayed by leaders, everyone in the room was touched by His presence .

And I got laid hands by Amelia. And through her, God spoke to me.

I didn't told anyone about this fear and the problems in my heart.

And the fear is I am scared of being alone and rejected. Even though I've alot of friends, but I still felt alone.

Even though I kept claiming that I am fine , but actually my heart was weeping, as it was already broken into little pieces.

And it's true, that I've always admired other people's lives. Why do I need to go through so much before I can really get what I want and work really hard for it, but some things will still slip away from me and I will end up getting broken into pieces? Throughout my life, I am always, always working very hard . But the results isn't always what I wanted/expected.

I just felt it was unfair. I just felt that this phrase "you reap what you sow" is wrong.

And I thought that God doesn't know how hardworking am I. Always thought that I've just got to face problems alone.

But it was like a BANG on my head.

But actually God knows, He knows every labour or little thing that I've always been working hard for, and it's just part of His plan , His destiny for me, in order to raise me up . And he's already told me from the beginning of the year. He will mend my broken heart, He will always be there for me, and He said, I am not alone, because He will be with me.

Literally cried throughout the prayer . Because I was so touched by His words for me and His presence.

Thank you God. Nothing in this world or my life is more awesome and beautiful to have You in my life, and meeting You.

After that we went to play wet games. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. all the soap and water . Some soap foam got into my eyes and I was wearing contact lens. T_T

But it was fun . :D

Bathed and ate BBQ food. Yummy. But was having sore throat before that. Ate one barbequed chicken and my voice became very hoarse,deep and sexy. LOL. *coughs coughs* (o'.'o)

Top 8 preachers were chosen, and Congrats to Andrian and Janet for winning ! :D

I am not being bias or what, but I really love Andrian's sermon the most. His sermon was the one which really touched deep into my heart and increased my faith in Him.

How faithful and loving our Father is!

Our life is nothing without You..

And.. Black team won. Congrats!

Thank you all leaders and Carol who organised and planned this chalet. Because this camp was awesome. Actually words can't describe how awesome this camp was. It was the best camp I've ever attended in my whole 19 years of life. I didn't regret going. :)

Knew alot of friends and had alot of fun!

But the best part is knowing and understanding our Father more, and encountering God.

Hallelujah ! :D

In fact I am going for the December church camp! :D

A verse to end with. :)

Psalm 28:7 (NIV)

The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.